Everything I love is gone, I’ve never been so alone in all my life.
Appreciate the times when you are so happy and be thankful when you have all the things and people that fill your day with love and laughter, because one day something may happen that crushes and ruins what you hold dearest to your heart. You may not be greedy, or want much for yourself, just a happy life with family and friends. I think these are basic needs in all beings, but life can be unfair, and it’s arrogance and ignorance will cause you pain, no matter how humble, caring, and loving you may be.
One day you may wake up and find that no one is there for you, no one to stand by your side, no one to protect you from the pains of life, and no one to talk to. Kids are not the only ones that cry into their blankets in the middle of the night. I stay quiet and never say a word to anyone about how I feel, but yes I also cry in the middle of the night where there is no chance of anyone seeing me and I will go on encouraging others, wanting others to be happy, while inside I feel like I am slowly dying. Such is life, it goes on for those who don’t want it, and leaves those who want to keep it. If I could give the essence of my life to a dying person that wanted to live, I would do so gladly.
I seem to have lost my space…
“Between stimulus and response there is a space…
In that space is our power to choose our response.
In our response lies our growth and our freedom.”
As they looked down and saw the tears, the broken hearts, and sad souls, they reached down and touched them with the energy of love, comforting and soothing their hearts and souls. They breathed fresh life into them, giving them the strength and courage they needed to move forward filled with loving gratitude. The souls knew something or someone had touched them and watched over them. Looking upward to the skies they sought the magical presence, yet they could not see, they could only feel the soothing warmth of unconditional love, and in their heart and souls, they BELIEVED.
I try so hard to be strong and cling to your presence, though there are days I fail miserably. My heart aches so deeply to feel your touch, to hear your words, that special way you look at me when you are pleased. I need you so intensely it is breaking my soul. I’m tired, impatient, greedy for you, and so very lost in this world. Please come take me with you, please let me feel you again so strongly as it once was in a life before. I am nothing here without you, just another lost soul.