~I’m back from Michigan for now and brought my daughter and grand kids with me for a couple of weeks. The grand kids are with their Daddy for a few days, and I’m getting to spend some one on one time with my daughter. I’m loving having her here and wish I didn’t have to take her back. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful daughter who has the most beautiful heart. ~
Many times I need to come back and read this poem to get myself in check, especially when something in life happens that I am not dealing with very well. When I’ve allowed disappointments to swallow me and infest me, causing an awful bitterness within I will read this poem and it helps me realize I am responsible for my own actions, and that the actions of others whether it has hurt me or not, is their responsibility and that the universe is unfolding as it should, and my job is to take care of my soul, to make sure that I keep peace in my own soul, and know that I have treated all with respect and kindness and that I continue to do so no matter what other’s have done to me. For whatever they have done, the universe has it’s plans for each of us.
Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Strive to be happy.
Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.
I was brought up where a person’s word actually meant what they said. No if’s, and’s, or buts. I still believe a person’s word should mean what they say, and their actions should prove it. I find as I get older, I still want to cling to that childish innocence, believing there is good in everyone, all the while experiencing the nastiness, manipulative, cold-hearted people that have crossed my path. Sometimes, I think myself a fool with my beliefs for the broken trust and hurt has far out-weighed love and trust.
I know people are not perfect, I am far from perfect. Yet, I do not lie, pretend to love someone, or am ever intentionally cruel to anyone. Is it just a matter of my mind and heart needing to grow up in order to accept that so many people are just plain cruel and do not give a shit who they hurt? I guess I am simply tired and disappointed that through my whole life the people I trust fit on one hand with room to spare.
I am spouting and venting, but more than likely I will go on as I have and still believe there is good in everyone. I guess I prefer to believe that, than believe the human race has turned to shit that’s not even good enough fertilizer to start new growth of goodness. At this point, only my dogs and bird get my love, at least they are loyal and love me back unconditionally. Well, at least the dogs do, the bird has conditions, (spoiled brat) LOL